Being a SAHM has really changed me. I know when I first became a mom was a big step for me in itself. It became not about me but about life in general :). Becoming a SAHM has made me open up more to other people. Less self conscious and less judgmental about people in general. There are of course days when I just want to pull my hair out but I wouldn't trade in any of it.

Well, its great spending a lot of xtra time with my kids, but on the other hand, is tuff because is less income for the family and on these hard days, both parents need to work. I am still looking for a part-time job, but I am having a hard time finding one, nothing has show up, up to now.

I've become more relaxed, loving, compassionate, mindful.... I'm a more positive person all around. It's a good thing. It's wonderful. I was always loving and compassionate, but now it's increased to the power of 10!

I think becoming a stepmother/stay at home mother has made me less selfish. I think of things in terms now of "how does that help my son?" I met my husband and twenty one, so I was still pretty irresponsible and immature. For the first year we were together we had J every other weekend, we came and went pretty much as we pleased. When we gained full custody it was like my maturity/responsibility switch was flipped on overnight.

Now, I'm always checking the food supply, hustling people out the door on school nights, mending clothes, driving to and fro. Stuff I never saw myself doing not even at twenty four, but here I am! Staying home has ensured a cleaner house and my family is always together for dinner. I really think the best part of my staying home, is that my stepson is feeling more secure and stable, knowing that I will be there after school every day. My husband and I see each other a lot more so, it also helps us stay connected.

Now that I read back on this I guess staying at home does have it's ups. Here I was railing against for, forever.